Not Good

I think you'll agree this picture is sad.

So, I found out yesterday that the property that I have hunted in Florida for the last several years (and planned to hunt this year as well) has changed to a "pay per hunt" piece of land. The landowner called me yesterday to inform me of the new prices. I have not ever paid to hunt there and was actually saddened by the news. It means that I will not be hunting in Florida this year because every spare dime we have these days is going toward opening Hunter Vision.

It took me a while to even figure out how I was reacting. I am not sad often enough to know what it feels like immediately. I get mad, bored, happy, frustrated, motivated, tired..etc., but almost never "sad". For that, I am grateful. I realized that I have a God who loves me, healthy family, a great marriage, a roof over my head and all the potential in the world ahead of me. Those are the things that matter, but yesterday it was hard to remember. I was really wrestling with how sorry I felt for myself that I couldn't do the one thing I plan all year to do.

Today is a little better. I know it is all temporary. Someday I hope to have some property and be able to share it like others have shared with me. Furthermore, I am still heading to Ohio to hunt with Isaac this year. That is good.

Maybe I'll find another place. I'll give it to God and see what He does with it.